Friday, April 22, 2005

What's Worse than Not Getting the Job?

Having to turn it down.

I really wanted this. I still do. I think it would be great for me. However, they called this afternoon to let me know that their budget only allows them to offer a salary that is fully $10,000 short of what I need to pay my bills. It's not a question of me thinking I'm worth more or finding a way to cut my costs. It's just well below what I need to meet my obligations.

They told me I could have the weekend to think about whether I still wanted to be considered, but I'll have to call them on Monday and withdraw.

I'm pretty down right now. I hate my current work situation and I was desperately hoping to have a way out of there today.

Thanks, everyone, for all your support and good wishes. Keep wishing.

8 comments:

Anthony said...

The one consolation I can think of - and it is a meagre one, I accept that fully - is that they're not as organised as they might be if it's only now that the financial considerations have come into play. If they knew already and hadn't told you, it's just rude.

Either way, it's not going to help you a great deal. I only hope you've got friends nearby to help you through this disappointment.

Andy said...

Well, I got the sense that they looked over their budget to see if there was any way they could get closer to what I said was my bottom line, but wanted to let me know they could not. They were very complimentary. But you know, I even really lowballed my own bottom line for them; what I said I would accept would still have been a few thousand shy of what the numbers say I need.

It's particularly hard because today was so rough at work. My boss, admittedly, has a horrendous travel itinerary for next week. But you know what? Every last thing on there is something HE asked for and INSISTED couldn't wait. I TOLD him that going to Los Angeles on Tuesday was going to be problematic, but he wouldn't listen. He asked for the impossible, and goddamnit I delivered. Now he's complaining about it. He can fuck off. GOD I wanted to quit today. And now I can't.

Anthony said...

I trust that they keep your name on file for any subsequent vacancies; as you clearly made a good impression on them, it'd only be fair.

Tell me you've got something on tonight - a change of scene, anything with a chance of taking your mind off this can only help. Whatever you do, don't mope around the house.

Jess said...

Oh, Andy, I'm sorry. That's really too bad. I know you wanted to work there. On the other hand, you have to take care of your own needs. That's the first reason why we go to work--to make a living. When it meshes with being somewhere we really want to be, that's wonderful, but it's also unusual.

Keep your head up. Something good will come along!

Also, Tony's right. If you're out tonight, that's good. Be sure to go do something fun this weekend. Remember to enjoy life and try to leave the office headaches at the office. *hug*

Andy said...

Thanks, guys. Tonight is my usual night out with "the boys," but I bailed. I know your advice is not to mope, but I'm just not up for putting on a happy face right now. Maybe later.

Instead I watched a couple of episodes of SATC, including the famous "fashion road kill one." Carrie's right. When real people fall down, they just get right back up again. Give me a minute to adjust my hair and hike up my jeweled undies, and I'll be back.

Anonymous said...

Hello Andy,

So sorry to hear about the job. If it's any consolation, I think you've still got the best ahead of you. These months are probably not going to be "the best" but I have the sense that you're a tough nut to crack :) you'll be alright, I promise :)

Hugs from the super warm Mexico.

SailRacer said...

Andy, I think you should take this if you can. Can you cut your bills down?

c said...

Just read this, so its sort of late. But I wanted to say, "that sucks." I work w/ Thunder and we long for the day to leave our situation, but alas, it is not to be at the moment. Sorry dude. I feel your unenjoyment.